I'm Sorry. . .I'm Sorry. . .

I'm sorry. . .
You left.
Without considering how this
Pain affects me.
You never understood.

I'm sorry. . .
Why did you say
You were there for me.
Why did you
Help me?!
When all you did in the end
Was forget everything and
Go away!

I'm sorry. . .Please don't go. . .
If you were going to be my help,
My lifeline,
My light,
Then you shouldn't have said
Those two simple words.
"I'm done"
Those words that ruined me.

I'm sorry!
Then. . .Then you came along
And helped me once more,
And you insulted me.
Again, and again.
Just because of my
Depression.
Just because of the walls I built
To protect myself!

I. . .I can't handle it. . .I'm sorry. . .
You. Broke. Me.
And you said you were
Helping me?!
You didn't care-
No-
You didn't
Know,
Care,
Or want to care
About my condition.
You just did what you wanted
Without bearing to watch
My pain
Caused by your words.

When you find me. . .I'll be dead. . .I'm sorry
This suicide note,
That you'll find covered in my own blood
And my own tears.
You won't care,
Will you?
You didn't seem to care
When you spoke so harshly to me,
And left me crying all the time.

So. . .I wanted to say goodbye. . .And I'm so sorry. . .
And yet,
Here,
I'm the one apologizing for what you did.
For the death you have caused.
For me taking my own life.
I'm not sorry for myself,
I never was,
And you weren't either.

Forgive me. . .I'm sorry I left. . .
Forgive me. . .
I left. . .
I'm sorry. . .
I'm so sorry. . .
I'm scared of dying,
But it's my only way out. . .

Let me die.
I'm sorry. . .
I'm sorry. . .
I'm. . .
I. . .
. . .

Up until my last breath.
I repeated those words. . .

And you never fucking heard me.

You never cared, anyways.