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And I've ironically chosen to write this exactly one year from last year's post.
2016 is now four days, nine hours, forty minutes minutes and something seconds away from when I've started to type this post, and 2015. . . Well. 2015 could have been better. It could have been much better, especially within the past few days and right now I'm just sort of winging this post because I don't feel like waiting any longer and need something to keep me occupied at the moment. So.
Let's get started.

As per tradition, for those interested, uninterested, or otherwise, here are the past years' new year's posts:

And now for the ceremonial checking-off of the list of last year's resolutions

idk get some band merch for this group I've fallen in love with (Steam Powered Giraffe is amazing)
Try not to be too self destructive
Maybe start selling some of my photographs I've had a few paid photoshoots this year
Do something with my new story plotline I have many new storylines that I've gotten started on.
Get more equipment for my photography, maybe a new camera
Actually get my license (get over your friggin driver's anxiety, jeeesus)
Make some more friends
Hold on to the friends I've got
Get some help for my personal issues
Discover more about myself
Love myself more
Start to heal
Read more than I've read this year
Enjoy what I can of the world
Branch out some more (socially, maybe explore places I haven't before)
Go on a road trip somewhere, anywhere, take people who mean a lot to me along for the ride
Go on a road trip by myself, maybe
Try not to lose myself for real

In total, counting underlined ones as 1/2 and underlined+striked ones as 3/4, about 10.75/18. Not as great as I would hope, but there have been some obstacles getting in the way of a few goals.
To keep the chain going, let's see how much I've actually done this year.

In 2015, I('ve). . .
Gotten (and quit) my first job
Started at least two new potential stories
Signed up for my first actual photography class
Officially reached one solid year clean from my self-harming addiction (for the first time in approximately six years)
Dyed my hair back to brown, got some blonde put back in and have at least half of my natural hair grown in
Grew out my pixie cut (no longer a "mullet" or a "half-grown something" anymore, an actual style to it.)
Come to terms with my sexual and romantic attractions (aromantic, pansexual. Yes, it's confusing. I know.)
Had multiple more paid photography sessions
Brought up some questions about gender and how I associate myself with it
Read many books and sat through too many marathons of tv shows
Helped some people
Was unable to help some people
Lost some people that I used to pour my heart and soul into
Lost a person that I wish I knew better
Started to try to heal, mentally, on my own and with a friend

So now 2016 is four days, nine hours, ten minutes and some seconds away. I've been zoning out and remembering and watching a movie while I'm doing this. Anyways, this year has had many emotional drops and work was a hellzone for me, unfortunately. I'm in a different mindset from this time last year, when I was sort of planning on dropping into the great abyss before the clock struck midnight, which I suppose is a good thing, but I'm still a bit further off from where I was hoping to be by this time. Small accomplishments are still things achieved, I suppose.

Now here are some resolutions for the mighty year of 2016.
Graduate highschool, obviously. (May 21st for anybody interested)
Make my one year achievement into two
Focus on writing for some time
Further my photography, get some more shoots done
Explore my gender confusion a bit more thoroughly
Read and enjoy reading
Go on a trip somewhere
Clean my room
Make more art
Reconnect with my siblings
Be more open to new experiences
Step out of my comfort zone, work on my anxiety and my sadness
Continue to heal

Fewer goals than last year, but all incredibly important ones to me. I've been very unproductive this year and I seem to have retreated into myself. I need to step out more and see more of the world than the terror that plagues it.

As per usual, I invite you all to make your own reflections and resolutions of 2015 and for the upcoming year, whether on this site or otherwise. And do share! I love to see what others have accomplished and what they hope to achieve in the new year.

Finally, I hope you all find safety and peace in the closing of 2015. This year has been chaotic, and hellish, and more than a little scary, but the holidays are coming to an end and so is the year, so please enjoy this time that we have. It's precious and can be put to an end much too soon.

To 2016, everyone.



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I'm Erin, but my common alias everywhere besides here and facebook is Ritski, so call me either/or.

I'm an overall quirky person with a love for photography and writing and have participated in National Novel Writing Month in 2012, 2013, and possibly further on as well!
I'm pretty friendly, and will befriend just about anybody, so don't be scared to drop a message!

I've got a lot of interests and hobbies and favorites for different things, so just check out the Interests section below for a little more insight!

Wow uh sorry I'm actually kind of boring and I'm not so great at making descriptions anymore, so I'll just leave this here by saying welcome, here you'll be able to travel with me in my maturing of photography and writing and I hope that you enjoy what you see!

Edit as of October 2013: I'll be much more active on my Tumblr pages as of late, so go ahead and head over there, too!

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lemontea Featured By Owner May 27, 2015
Aloha! What's up?

pinkythepink Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2015  Professional Artisan Crafter
:blowkiss: Hello! I'm going through favorites I've missed in the past and thanking people, so bear with me for taking so long to give a personal reply.
:iconrubcheeksplz: Thank you SO much for your support by adding my first daily deviation to your favorites back in 2012. :giggle: A long time ago, I know! But I had to thank you sometime!

This is a formal invitation to come and see where my gallery has gone since then, since I believe I've vastly improved. :love: If you don't care for it no harm done and I won't bother you anymore. :D
IveDiedInside Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2015  Student Photographer
Your work is as fantastic and dazzling as ever! Meow :3 
pinkythepink Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2015  Professional Artisan Crafter
:giggle: Thanks for stopping by to look and the compliments :blowkiss:
Bunnairry Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy birthday!!~ :)
IveDiedInside Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2014  Student Photographer
Aaaah, thank you! (Whoops lookie me not checking my phone or here for birthday messages until the day after pfft)
Nullibicity Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:iconthxfavplz: It's warmly appreciated! :happybounce::heart:

Also, your work looks lovely! It really is compelling. I also quite enjoyed reading your Dev ID: You share yourself in a way that's so open and loving! It's was definitely refreshing, and I have to admit to a little envy: I'm so bad at sharing things about myself - or sometimes just expressing myself, in general.
I look forward to viewing more of your future works! :heart:
IveDiedInside Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013  Student Photographer
Aaaah- thank you! And you're welcome for the favourite, your work is quite amazing.
Nullibicity Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:blush: Thank you! You really are a kind soul. Sometimes I'm not too sure about my writing, but I'm glad you can find enjoyment in it! :heart:

You're most welcome! :rose:
CreepyForever Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2013
Thanks so much for faving my entry!
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