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An autobiography by Erin.

Everything's been horrible lately and last night pretty much broke me. Sunday's going to be so bad. 
Let's rewind a couple of weeks. So three weeks ago my grandfather dies. Two weeks ago I spend no less than three days at a funeral home. Last week my mother is dealing with so much crap from her younger brother over their dad's possessions (her two younger sisters don't feel they can even go to the house because he gets so verbally violent towards them when they want something like a family picture. He's trying to dictate everyone and everything and my mother comes home from her childhood home in tears after every trip.). Only good thing about last week was over the weekend when my mother, her sister, my cousins and my cousin's kids and I went up to Mapleside for the day and I got to see Jessi while she was working.
Then this week everything's sort of gone to hell in my head.
Monday I had what we all think was an anemic fit in the middle of Forensics, so I nearly passed out in the middle of class and couldn't walk twenty feet without probably falling over so my teacher had to call the nurse down to take me to her office in a freakin wheelchair. Not fun. I was terrified. Tuesday I just walked up to the library as I've been the past few weeks and found out I didn't fail my government exam (I now have an A in the class after meeting with my professor yesterday, so that's the last good thing that happened this week) Wednesday's a blur and yesterday just fucked everything up. I don't think I've cried that hard in a couple of years, to be honest. Not since Peter and I were still together and we were going through shit. 
Basically Jessi's coming over today to kind of say goodbye. Because she's moving on Sunday. To Tennessee. Permanently.
I'm gonna end this here before I start crying again. Fuck.


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I'm Erin, but my common alias everywhere besides here and facebook is Ritski, so call me either/or.

I'm an overall quirky person with a love for photography and writing and have participated in National Novel Writing Month in 2012, 2013, and possibly further on as well! (I already have plans with a friend to collaborate for 2014, whoop!)
I'm pretty friendly, and will befriend just about anybody, so don't be scared to drop a message!

I've got a lot of interests and hobbies and favorites for different things, so just check out the Interests section below for a little more insight!

Wow uh sorry I'm actually kind of boring and I'm not so great at making descriptions anymore, so I'll just leave this here by saying welcome, here you'll be able to travel with me in my maturing of photography and writing and I hope that you enjoy what you see!

Edit as of October 2013: I'll be much more active on my Tumblr pages as of late, so go ahead and head over there, too!

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Bunnairry Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy birthday!!~ :)
IveDiedInside Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Aaaah, thank you! (Whoops lookie me not checking my phone or here for birthday messages until the day after pfft)
Nullibicity Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:iconthxfavplz: It's warmly appreciated! :happybounce::heart:

Also, your work looks lovely! It really is compelling. I also quite enjoyed reading your Dev ID: You share yourself in a way that's so open and loving! It's was definitely refreshing, and I have to admit to a little envy: I'm so bad at sharing things about myself - or sometimes just expressing myself, in general.
I look forward to viewing more of your future works! :heart:
IveDiedInside Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Aaaah- thank you! And you're welcome for the favourite, your work is quite amazing.
Nullibicity Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:blush: Thank you! You really are a kind soul. Sometimes I'm not too sure about my writing, but I'm glad you can find enjoyment in it! :heart:

You're most welcome! :rose:
CreepyForever Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2013
Thanks so much for faving my entry!
IveDiedInside Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
You're welcome! ^-^
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You're welcome :).
kvicka Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
thanks for :+fav:
IveDiedInside Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
You're welcome ^-^
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